Coping on the surface

[Choufleur]

My mum has terminal cancer - I've just been to buy a mothers day present and card for her and started crying in the shop as it will probably be her last one.
Everyone keeps telling me how strong I'm being but I feel that if you just scratch the surface I'll go to pieces.

I'm signed off work til next week and taking ADs. I just want to feel normal.

So sorry hun

But if someone you love is dying coping on the surface is all you can do! It's normal no matter how painful to go to bits over it.

Is there an underlying depression already that you are taking ADs for?

The ads are a result of her diagnosis. I lost my dad fairly recently and just feel like I'm teeter

Sorry was on phone and it died.
Meant to say that I feel like I'm teetering on the edge of crying and shouting frequently.

Bloody hell it's hard enough to lose one parent at a time no wonder you're overwhelmed. I hope the ADs help a bit.

How about some counselling support? Maybe bereavement counselling - try Cruse

Hang in there, how you feel is normal in the circumstances because the circumstances are singularly crap. Try to talk about whatever you're feeling, in rl or on here. And if you shout and cry you shout and cry - you're human.

Choufleur I am really sorry at your news.
My dad is now in a hospice. He was diagnosed last July and has really held on. We have tried to make the most of each day, but it is so hard to hold it together.
Do cry, it does help. Do you have any siblings? My sister and I recounted our childhood funny incidents with my dad - it was so good to laugh too.
The ADs will take a while to kick in, usually a month most guess. Am a little surprised that you have been given these for grieving, but your GP knows best.
Do feel free to contact your GP for more help and advice - doesn't have to be meds. I offloaded to mine and it relieved a lot of my tension.
My sincerest warm wishes and thoughts are with you x