Depressed and fed up

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Firstly I?m not a troll and am a regular on Mumsnet
Why do I get so stressed out with my kids? Aged 4 and 2, I seem to really struggle keeping them under control and it?s really stressing me out. I had undiagnosed PND with ds1 and PND which was finally diagnosed when ds2 was 8 months old. Was on AD?s for a while but came off last summer. Feel increasingly ?out of control?, tearful, ?on edge? and generally crap.We do stuff together during the week, but it is such hard work. I end up stressing and shouting at the kids. I feel like staying in with the TV on. DS2 is not sleeping at all well atm, so I?m getting up 2 or 3 times a night to sort him out. Also been on the mini-pill for a month to see if that sorts out another problem (in the bedroom?..), but feel totally uninterested. Sex twice in 6 months is not good. House is a tip ? it?s all too much. DH said ? I need to learn to chill a bit and not worry so much (thanks very much)......maybe he?s right. I just feel like a bad tempered old b*tch atm, don?t seem to enjoy anything. Can PND come back?

how long have the sleepless nights been going on for? just wondering how much they are contributing to your feelings of stress etc. can I ask why the mini-pill? was it because you wanted to come off pill to see if that helped re:libido?

DS2 has never been a good sleeper - used to hate his cot and because I felt so awful coping I used to bring him into dp and my bed. Then I got him a bed of his own which he seems to like but he still wakes up a number of times and wanders about.

Mini pill was an alternative to condoms which dp loathes. I thought it might help him help me if that makes sense.

if you can try and get the sleep sorted out/improved then you may feel a whole lot better. you need to get your DH to help with some of the nightwakings (or at the very least to give you a chance to catch up on sleep at the weekends etc).