I keep having flashbacks to mental hospital. I know I needed to be there, if I got like that again I would want to be admitted rather than left at home, and one of the reasons is that I have been treated at home before, and it has "tainted" my home - I would rather have the bad memories be somewhere else, iyswim.
But...they are really affecting me. They come with no warning and I am there. I obsess over ways to escape. I obsess over ways to gain more control, or how to get information across when everything gets put down as a symptom.
Even police cars scare me now.
What can I do?