Father called me nutcase,mental, idiot, stupid etc

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when I was a child, teenager and young woman. I think it was because he didn't have a good childhood himself and I look like his Mother, so remnded him of that. He made my life a misert everyday until i finally left hime 20 years ago. I'm very affected by him still and i broke contact with both parents in 2005. I'm in Psychodynamic therapy for 13 months now.
I feel he is right in ways as I have been called mental, nurtcase etc by almost every person I've known since. I think if a person gets to know me i do stuff to make them think i'm mad. I can't describe what just now.

My self esteem is low and ive started a new class and already they think im nuts.

Therapist says i'm not depressed ( she been practising 35 years)

My mind boggles as to how a person could damage a childs mind, self uimage etc,

Thank fully i've broken the pattern with my own child as i made the decision to do this when i was a very young child, :)

I still let that bastard rule me.

I isolate myself as i feel i'll never be seen as just 'normal' I've no friends, they hurt me, used me didn't care and left me.

Why do people thinks you're nuts? Can you describe exactly what you do - andwould you tink someone was 'nuts' if they did it to you?

Congrats on getting away from toxic parents. Prob the biggest boost to your confidence.