Just that really. I do not seem to be able to keep an even keel.
I have a long history of depression and for the last 4 years have not been functioning very well.
I self isolate mainly but have managed to do some positive things in the last few weeks, mainly walking the dog.
The problem is that small things can just knock me back down to complete desperation.
My marriage is well, shit really. I plucked up the courage to post on the relationships board and although I had some really good advice, mentally I just could'nt handle the percieved critisism.
So from having made some positive steps I am now back to rock bottom and am clinging on yet again.
Why does this happen, why does lets face it something so small and insignificant make me feel so utterly desperate ?
I am on a good wack of anti depressants, on the waiting list for cbt. I also have a child with severe asd who my gp and other professionals I am/have been involved with seem to think if dc was to go into care then my depression would be resolved, that is not going to happen.
Rambling now but I wanted to give a full picture iyswim?