Not good at all

[philnteds]

Haven't posted on here in ages
Been on Prozac for a year for anxiety/panic attacks and generally have been well. Doing cbt now as well which is helping
BUT sometimes and this is happening this week...just feel completely out of control of my life. I actually wanted to dash and run get on a train and go to london to do........god knows what........just do something different and flee the responsibility.

Stressful job, husband that works away, abusive father/traumatic relationship worse since having DS, no family support at all....don't know what to do....no appetite been crying and/or sleeping all day today....have to go to work tomorrow and just can't face anything. I cancelled two things this evening socially i just need peace and quiet. Have found ever since DS there are some friends i just can't deal with because they need to much and feel like i need to rest my brain.

anyone else feel this way? not expecting miracles answers just want to get a hold of things again......

I do feel like going off and doing something reckless (involving lots of booze and illegal drugs and loud music probably) sometimes. But I would never ever do it.

I think that is the key thing to consider. Would you really actually just go and jump on a train? If so, maybe you need to up the anti-d's just slightly, or at least chat with your doctor.

thanks...i think its just a fantasy escape valve (??) because i would never do it, i would still have all the blasted washing up to come back to.

DP has been a peach and just done a month's load of ironing for me
I might need to up the anti-d's although they do make me tired
thanks for your response duchess of Pork love the name!

Phoned cbt therapist today and decided to go back to gp tomorrow to see about upping my dose I really was out of control earlier in the week. Does anyone else who suffers from anxiety have a terrible loud noise in their head? It's exhausting that and the list of things whizzing around my head that need to be done :(