Went away for a few days to our caravan with the kids last week as everyone dh,dc,dr and therapist told me I needed it and it would do me good. Found it ok because DD2 (16) was with me all time could go out a lot easier than at home took them out the last night for dinner managed ok but was really anxious all the time we were in.I crashed badly one night over something stupid and DS saw it. I hate him seeing me upset he's 17 but autistic only got it confirmed yesterday should of been relieved as I've always known but was upset. Was ok sunday got loads done but since yesterday morning I feel like I'm back at the beginning again apart from the constant crying I'm shaky, racing heart only got showered and dressed yesterday because the MH nurse was coming about DS not even got that far today need to go shopping nothing left in for dinner but can't face it cars due an MOT this week not even got it booked anywhere. Got therepy session on saturday she gave me a task not even thought about what I can write because I really don't know the answer. Feel so stupid writing it all down.