anybody feel like giving me some support....

[stupidname]

I just feel awful ATM.
I feel tearful all the time.
So, so tired (though I'm sleeping ok)
Keep thinking about ending it all, how, when, etc. (though I wouldn't do anything..........couldn't leave my family)
I love my family to bits, but just feel numb ATM.
DH takes it personally when I say how I feel, so I've been keeping it to myself.
I eat too much, but it seems to help, briefly.
I know I should see the doc, but that's not going to happen.....long story.
I just want to talk to somebody. Anybody. Just tell me to stop being silly.

this will pass. Just keep going.

Get yourself to the dr and be totally honest with him/her

GP appt
if you can't talk write it down
don't struggle on alone, you need support
has anything significant changed? how long have you felt like this?
is this a sudden deterioration or felt low for while

Been feeling "low" for a while. Seems to peak and then even out.......for several years now. There are a few things that have happened recently.......not sure if any of this is behind this latest cloud. This is as low as I've ever felt, apart from when DD (now 9) was born.

GP appt and maybe jot some stuff down before appt
any significant life/ familial situations
when is your mood good
when is mood bad
have think what the few things are,how this may affect you
and good luck

you 'think' you sleep enough probably means you don't really? make sure you really do as sleep is a massive healer for you.

you need to talk to someone, i found talking the best help. Can you work on your dh, have a proper heart to heart, starting with you don't want him to take this personally but you really need his help and support.
If not him, then a good friend or relative?

Look after your health and take some long walks in fresh air - perhaps with dh to have your heart to hearts if possible?

Why will you not go to GP? can you see a different medical professional instead? I know the nurse at my GP's is far easier to speak to.

Remind yourself that you've been here before and it won't last forever, and you can make some positive steps to try and change it - one of those is seeking help.

xx hugs xx