What is wrong with me? I knew these feeling were coming back again.All the warning signs were there, but I tried to hide it. Now people are going to notice and things will get worse. I hate myself so much that I just can't stop it happening. The life I've worked so hard to build up is slowly going down the drain again. I know it will get better eventually but I am dreading the process and the way my life will be until then.
Nobody I know understands how I feel right now and I cannot talk to real people about any of this stuff. I can only type it out, but even then I really don't have the right words to express myself. I guess i don't really understand myself either, but I know I hate it. :(