I've had two rather disappointing appointments today.
Firstly a HV came to see me at home. She was useless, and I ended up getting rather annoyed with her as she couldn't tell me what there was around to help me other than going to see my GP and being referred to the CMHT (by the GP). she suggested a group at the local childrens centre, but I went to this group when I had DS1 and it's not specifically for mums with PND, just to discuss issues and problems and to give each other support as new mums. (and I can't go anyway as I have DS1 at home on that day.) She even managed to make me feel worse - when I said if DS1 woulnt go to sleep if I have to put him to bed when DH is not here (not been done yet) then I'd probably just keep him up (rather than sitting next to him in his cot for two hours as has been necessary recently), she said "oh, won't that be disruptive to his routine? Well it'll be preferable to me having to listen to my non-sleeping 4 month old screaming in the other room, isn't it? Grrrr.
I then went to my GP, explained that I feel low and would like meds and to be referred on. I have a prescription, that's good, and a self referral form for the local IAPT service. She couldn't tell me what specific interventions were available either, just that I'll get triaged by IAPT. Fair enough, but surely she should have some idea of what my options might be?
And how can the HV not know about IAPT? It's a self referral, the GP just handed it to me to take away....
Oh, and as I was putting my coat on she (the GP) said "you';re not feeling suicidal are you?". Well no, I'm not, but if I was, was that the best way to ask that question?!
So, now I just want to know what happens now, once I've filled in and sent off the IAPT form. I've picked up my Sertraline and will start taking them tonight so it's a start, but I'm hoping there's going to be more out there to help me than just meds.