I have been feeling so stressed this past year. My son was born prematurely a year ago and this triggered depression, feelings of guilt and inadequacy. I also had to deal with discovering my grandmother had 18 months to live (she is still here though thankfully), my partner living three hours away and my lovely uncle dying. Ds and I are now living with dp but I feel quite isolated, I don't know anyone and we've been here since October.
I was prescribed amitriptyline for depression but I stopped taking it after a few weeks because I missed a dose and found I couldn't sleep, I don't want to get reliant on it.
Sorry, anyway, I keep having what I can only describe as nightmares but when I'm awake during the day. I imagine that something really bad is about to happen, for example everytime I cross the road I imagine I get run over (I was knocked down a few months ago but unharmed), when I cook tea I imagine the pan falls to the floor on top of my son or worry he will somehow get out of the house (he is one and not yet walking).
Does anyone else feel like this? I know I sound completely crazy, sorry if this is a bit long and rambled.