Inpatient treatment?

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Been severely depressed for some time, plus an extremely stressful two months. Last night I went a little crazy and self-harmed and tried to think of a way to kill myself instantly. DH now scared to death and tried to take me to hospital, but I refused to get dressed.

I woke up this morning and just cried and cried because I prayed so hard that I would just die in the night.

I think I need to go into hospital. What do I do? What should I expect? I can't be trusted on my own.

I'm also 22 weeks pregnant with number two. DH can get time off to look after DS.

I don't know what else to do. I can't cope. I feel like I'm not a human anymore.

I'm sorry that you are feeling like this. I don't have any experience of being in hospital, but from reading what you have put I think that it may be a good idea that you do so. I'm sorry I don't have any good advice for you. I hope someone will be along shortly to answer your questions and be of use to you.

If you go to your gp they can put you on touch with the ante/peri natal psychiatric team. If you are in immediate risk to yourself you can go straight to a&e and they will get someone out to assess you immediately. I was under the mother/baby mental health team when I was pregnant.

Hiya, You can either ask your Gp for a referral to your local mental health team, or for an immediate response you can find your local mental health crisis team's contact details if you google it, then you can let them know how you have been feeling and they will either visit you or ask for you to go to their hospital/offices.
Can I ask how old DS is? The crisis team will most likely refer you to a ante/perinatal mental health team. Can I ask what area you live? I can then find the details for you if you like??
I have been a patient in an acute psychiatric hospital and an in patient at a mother and baby unit. I can tell you that you WILL feel better, I promise.
You need help though, are you on any medication?
Feel free to pm me, you can ask me anything and I will answer honestly.
Please keep talking to your partner. Do not be ashamed of telling the professionals the whole truth, don't keep anything back they have heard it all before. As I said ask me anything, xxxxxxxx

I'd get DH to take you to A&E next time you feel like this - the Crisis Team will come out to you - much quicker route to access the service.

The crisis team will refer me to a mother and baby unit, but it's day only. They asked what I wanted from them and I felt like screaming MAKE ME FEEL BETTER, but I just shrugged and kept crying. Anyway, referral will go through 'sometime this week' and I'll get a letter soon. Said they'd fill in my GP and HV and midwife.

I probably should have guessed it wasn't really all that bad. I felt like an idiot, sobbing over stupid shit, and it was just stupid stupid stupid. I wish I would just die.

It's not an unreasonable request, nobody.wants to feel the way you do. Just be as open and honest as you can.

Tbh I think its great you get day access. You can spend the day there, bit go home to cuddle up with your DH at night. My MBU don't have day treatment and its awfully lonely at night.

Having been in one myself, I would guess that a MBU is a much better environment fo you than an adult psychiatric ward. I know exactly what you mean about when the crisis keep asking what you want from them and I reacted exactly the same way. I think scheherezade is probably right about the day access though- at least its somewhere you can feel safe for now. Wish I could come and help you, its awful being so depressed especially when pregnant.

Just to add that i've been an inpatient in both a MBU and an regular psych ward. The MBU wins hands down - it was a wonderful, gentle, supportive environment. My experiene, at least, was 110% positive. It would be nice if someone could wave a magic wand and make everything perfect, but the realiy is that - most of the time- they can listen, care, support, protect and the rest takes time.