Broke down at work

[topgams]

I've been feeling down for the last week or so, not being able to get out of bed till 3 or 4 in the afternoon, and I know that's a sign of depression for me. I've experienced this before but have never been to the doctors about it, instead I've just hidden in bed until it's passed.

Today, though, I had to get up and go to work. I managed to get there but immediately felt panicky and teary, and ended up breaking down and sobbing to one of my co-workers. Luckily she's been through the same thing and immediately recognised what was going on, and took me to my manager to explain the situation, and I was sent home.

Now I know I have to go and see the doctor next week, but I'm absolutely terrified that he'll think I'm just being overdramatic or something and not be able to do anything for me. I feel sick just thinking about going back to work or doing much of anything, it all just feels like too much pressure, and I've been crying all day (well, after I got back in bed and slept until 4. All I want to do is sleep because then I don't have to deal with anything or anyone).

Sorry this is so long and rambling, I just don't know what to do or think. I feel so hopeless.

hello topgams, just to say I am bumping this for you. You must, must go to the Dr's, they have a duty to treat you sympathetically and you deserve their care. I dont know of anyone who has not been treated with respect when they go and ask for help.

You must go to your GP next week and help is available for you, so don't worry that you won't be taken seriously. You may need to take some time off work until you are feeling less anxious.

Do you have someone you can talk to this weekend? You have recognised that you need help, and that's the first step towards overcoming this. Take care.

Thank you so much to both of you for responding. I know it's pointless to keep thinking about what might happen at the doctor's, so I'm talking myself into trying to relax until I actually go there. That's another big thing for me, worrying about things that haven't even happened yet, so I'm trying to stay calm!

The co-worker I collapsed on is very sympathetic and I know I can phone or text her anytime this weekend, so that's keeping me going as well. Again, thank you for responding, it really does help and means a lot.

GP's are very used to dealing with mental health problems, so please don't worry about being honest about how you feel. It sounds like you've felt this way before and got through it, so you know you can get better again. I'm glad you've got someone in real life to support you this weekend.

absolutely agree with GRW.. was thinking of you today Topgams! X

Thank you very much for the reassurance, and for thinking of me. I've just got back from the doc's and he's signed me off work for a week with stress to give me a break, and told me to come back after that if things haven't improved. It's a big relief that I've got some time to try and get myself together, but he seemed to focus on that and ignore the depression side of things, which was a little disheartening. But this is a start, we'll see how it goes, and I won't hesitate to go back if things don't improve (which I fear they won't, but positive thinking!)

First thing on the menu tomorrow is a jog round the park and then a trip to the supermarket to buy lots of fresh veggies and cook something to give me a boost. That's if I can get out of bed, obviously.

Thank you so much for the support, and if anyone has any advice for me I'd be so grateful to hear it.

thats really good news Topgams, well done for making the decision to go ahead with the Dr's. I wish I could add something more useful, only to say if you can get out and get exercise and fresh air it will do you lots of good. If/when you return (as you say you may well have to- but hopefully not)perhaps you could ask about some kind of talking therapy like CBT available, I used to live next to a therapist and she was referred patients via the NHS. She specialised in helping people with depresssion, although there can be a bit of a waiting list. Other than that maybe someone else more experienced on here can advise?