I think I may have borderline personality disorder judging by my horrendous difficulties in relationships, bad life decisions and fear of abandonment or am I just unlucky? I have put men on a pedlestool before only to get super angry when rejected and although am good academically, bad choices have held me back. I recently lost my mum and I am still single. I'm just feeling a bit edgy and I would like to sort myself out. I do think that I have given myself an excessively hard time in life by making the most stupid, random choices and I would like to figure out why. I'm also fed up with being lonely.