Whats wrong with me?

[fluffygal]

If someone said to you they had just ripped out their hair,could not breath properly,could not stop shaking and wailing and had to lie in bed for 2 hours whilst no one came to see what was wrong,what would you think had happened?I am still teary and feel in a daze now and have to do the school run in 5 min.Great.

Who is the 'someone' who might have come to see you? Is there a problem with that person? Hope you feel better soon. Maybe getting out for the school run will help temporarily.

It is not clear who is who in your post.

Try again in the first person (I had to do x,y,z) so we can understand what is going on.

Sorry still dazed not sure what's wrong with me to be honest. I did all the above,ripped my hair out,etc and don't know why.

Well things like that rarely happen spontaneously so there will likely be a trigger of some kind. Sounds like you need to call someone to be with you and contact your gp for an appointment today.

It sounds like a bit of an extreme panic attack - have you had those before?

How are you doing now, fluffy?

Hi,sorry for not replying sooner.I feel better today thanks.I haven't had this happen before but I have felt very close to the edge for months now.OH and my dad were in the house doing diy when it happened but chose to ignore me.The thing that set it off was my dad asking for a cup of tea but it had built up over the day.I had given out my daughters party invites yesterday morning and found out her best friend had a party the same day and they overlapped.My ex had taken the invite and not told me,hadn't even opened it.I rung him to complain as he had sat and watched me write out the invites and not said anything,he said he has other things to think about.Well so do I,a thousand more things then him,all the little mundane kids things and details.if I hadn't found out would she just have missed her best friends party because he has other things to think about?!So that's set me off for a bad mood for the day,as it was a fine example that I am responsible for everything,and made me look like an idiot to the other parents as then had to rush round finding all mums to change the day of DD1s party! the cup of tea thing set it off as I had taken the week off work,yesterday was the one day I was able to get someone to have the DD2 so really wanted to get lots of diy done.I had spent hours on the phone arguing with a flooring company as they had recommended a floor but when it arrived it wasn't what I had asked for.They are refusing to take responsibility and want me to pay 150 quid to exchange it!Anyway, the moment I actually was able to start diy I was demanded to make tea.I tried to explain I only had an hour before the kids finished school and had to pick up DD2 but was told in that case it was more important for my dad and OH to get on.Even though I would be looking after thr kids after school,not them so it wouldn't affect them. Just reinforced that I am here as a slave for everyone else and my own things are unimportant. I must keep on top of absolutely everything and how crap I am and a failure if I don't remember things even if its down to other people not telling me things. . . The failure thing all stems from my wedding.My mum was really negative over every aspect and we completely fell out,m sister took her side and had a go at me 2 days before my wedding despite not hearing my side of things. The thing I will never forget is when I arrived at my wedding,one of my bridesmaids in a seperate car got lost.My friend who had seen me 2 days before the wedding in tears due to my family,overheard my mum and two sisters tutting about how the BM was late and how I 'can't even manage the small details,how hard is it really?' She had informed me she was following another bridesmaids car but hadn't told that bridsesmaid,so she just drove off without her!Obviously its my fault. That has stayed with me since I found out and now I feel like I cannot live up to anyones expectations,and to think just before I was walking down the aisle my family were thinking how shit I am just kills me. Sorry for long post,hopefully I'll feel better now its out though.

Sorry I tried to add paragraphs but my phone has removed them for some reason?