Is it possible to be depressed without feeling depressed?

[Austenite]

Ok, I do have moments of feeling terrible- I spent time on the phone to The Samaritans on Xmas day when the family went out visiting, for example. I cried off with a cold, but really I just couldn't be arsed. I couldn't explain what was wrong, except that I felt very "what's the point?" about this coming year, and exhausted. I do feel like just closing my eyes and giving up some days.

But mostly, I'm ok. I have a good sense of humour, I'm chirpy around people and on here in my usual guise, but I spend too much time on the internet, I very rarely leave the house or even get dressed if I can help it. Sometimes I don't even shower or brush my teeth, and even getting as far as the kitchen to wash up, or get the place tidied up seems overwhelming. I can sleep for hours.

I just feel like I've puddled myself into slime, really, if that makes sense. What's wrong with me? How do I get my mojo back?

You certainly sound as if you could be depressed. What do you think it means to be depressed? It doesn't have to mean feeling sad and crying in a corner. One of the most important symptoms of depression is not enjoying life the way you used to do. Neglecting your own appearance is another big one. Maybe you should have a chat with your gp.

Yes, you do sound depressed to me. I often have what I class as low level depression where I'm actually ok but finding life a bit meh, struggling with everyday stuff like tidying up, having a shower etc but today I have what I class pretty bad depression. I have barley moved, want to sleep all day.

Go and visit your GP.

Yes, apathy, not getting much pleasure out of anything, not caring about yourself even though you can pull yourself together when there are other people around...all of those are signs.

Yes, I'm pretty sure I am depressed atm, but I don't spend my days feeling sad and desperate and despondent (like I did when I had PND). I do just feel apathetic and detached.

I did get anti-d's a few months ago but stopped taking them not entirely sure why, I just couldn't be bothered with it all. I have let the house and myself go, I spend too much time fannying about on the internet and I would sleep 18 hours out of 24 if given the chance. I have lost interest even in the internet tbh, it's just habit, I haven't read a book for yonks and can barely concentrate on a film.

I have just lost hope I think, motivation has exited stage left. You should certainly go to the GP (as should I).