This time last year, i was going through an awful time in my life. I had very bad health anxiety and pnic attacks. I hit rock bottom last april and went to my gp who prescribed me ADs and Xanex.
I was terrified of taking ADs so said id try it naturally one last time before i took them. I distanced myself from anyone who was causing me stress (IL's mainly!) and i started taking a cocktail of natural remedies/vitamins for anxiety, exercising, changed my diet etc. I completely turned myself around and i felt great for it. it was a great time of year with the bright evenings and was out in the park with kids more etc.
The last few weeks i have felt a bit stressed with christmas, dp job in jeopardy etc and i have felt it coming back. i went out last week for a meal with friends and had a good few drinks, the next morning i had a really bad panic attack. I was fine once it was over and went back to sleep. but ever since, i have had this tightness in my chest, im terrified something is wrong with me.
Deep down i knwo it is just anxiety as i am not aware of it when i am busy just when the kids are gone to bed and im sitting down.
I am terrified its going to get bad again and i dont think i could cope with it again...
I am supposed to be going out tomorrow night with dp. My mum is taking dc overnight and he is really looking forward to it but i really dont want to go. Im afraid to drink again in case i have a panic attack in the morning again : (