Senses numbed- depression, or something like depression

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Does anyone feel uninhibited...like a release you can't enjoy? Like- you don't care about being embarrassed because nothing touches you anyway. You don't mind seeing people because you won't get flustered anyway. Any situation the outcome of which you would normally care about- you can handle with ease because there's no thought involved. It just all goes by in a haze. You don't feel annoyed with people. There's no point in eating chocolatey things even though you know some part of you must be enjoying it.
I'm rambling a bit. But does anyone feel like this? Because I thought that, if you're depressed, everything becomes magnified and little things seem insurmountable.

I'm supposed to be getting some CBT thing, which I doubt will help, but....as with everything else, never mind, just go along, it's a few more hours...

well yes that sounds pretty depressed to me

Has anyone got any miracle stories of CBT?

I just feel like it cannot carry on like this, I'm missing everything, everything is a blur....it's been like this for three years, and at first I was so scared that it wasn't just a phase, now I can't make myself care, but I do want to get out of it. I am an android, connected to something with lots of likes and dislikes, but we do not communicate...glass ceiling, looking down...none of these metaphors help!
How do people snap out of it? What cures it?

Sorry. This is v. self centred thread/post.

Could be feeling empty/[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anhedonia anhedonia]

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Yes I have felt like that before, and I had severe depression at the time. I couldn't feel anything. I am someone who normally cries quite a lot, and during this phase I physically couldn't cry. Even though I was desperate and miserable, the tears wouldn't come. It was a very strange and distressing experience. I think the not feeling things is also a symptom. I couldn't feel any sense of pleasure at all, and I remember even things like a sneeze or a good yawn were totally unsatisfying. It sounds a bit like what you describe with the chocolate - knowing you should somehow be enjoying it but yet you can't.

I think you might have depression.... depression isn't just sitting and crying all the time, it can manifest in many different ways. Emotional blunting can most definitely be a symptom.

It's not very easy to "snap out of it" when you've reached clinical depression. You may need medication, although talking therapies also do help. Can you see your GP?

Thank you for replying- I know it's not very interesting! Although, you know, it might be...

I can see my GP, yes, in fact someone better, a therapist of some sort I've been referred to because of this other assessment I've had. I'm seeing them next week. I'm 18, so they're falling over themselves not to offend me. I don't need that, in fact it's the worst thing for me, I think. But I am grateful for how quickly they're organising things for me so I shouldn't complain, they know what they're doing.
Yes- now I think, what's the point in eating nice things, I know it'll just be a waste. Like incense, music, cycling downhill, through puddles, alcohol, painting...whatever.

Thanks for the link, Upward. I do certainly have several symptoms, but, as always, together they might not amount to anything. The only thing I definitely don't want is pills of any kind, not that I need them or anything.

I think an absolute position of 'no pills ever' can be damaging - I felt that last year, and ended up in hospital for longer than need be.