Bulimia

[Thetallestsunflower]

Hi again. I have just done a post where I briefly mentioned this ('dr made me feel stupid' post)but decided to post again about it properly to see if anyone is going through similar.
From being very young I have always had an obsession about my weight. I wouldn't say I was ever anorexic but when I used to go above a certain weight I would diet obsessivly so I was eating about 700 calories a day so I could bring my weight down to a slightly under weight BMI. I also used to frequent 'pro ana' websites right when they were first invented
However when I met my now husband we were going out for meals all the time so I struggled to lose weight by cutting calories so I began to make myself sick after I felt I had eaten too much. This allowed me to maintain my weight. This began about 6 years ago, since which I have had my 2 kids. There have been periods where I have felt I have conquerred the problem by joining weight watchers and reaching a target weight. However as soon as I reached that weight, I would start to eat more again, gain weight and then panic and start making myself sick.
I am going through a bad period with it at the moment as I am at the maximum weight I allow myself to be. I am planning on joining a slimming club but at the same time I feel like this is something that will never go away as it always comes back.
Has anyone over come this disorder and how? I saw the DR today about my anxiety and depression and she reluctantly referred me for CBT. I didn't mention the bulimia as I didn't feel comfortable with her but I feel like I might mention it when I go for an initial consultation following my CBT referal.

Well done for speaking about this, and for trying to get help. I've had bulimia for nearly twelve years, and have had both good and bad times with it. My GP also recommended me for CBT and I went for about 6 weeks. I didn't get on with the counsellor though, and didn't feel it was working. I'm sure it works really well for some people, but not for me.
The best thing for me was to find a private psychotherapist and see her. Yes, it's expensive, but I find it very helpful. I think that getting any kind of help only works when you want to do it, rather than someone else wanting you to. I try to stay away from things that are triggering (pro-ana websites, books, being around others who are dieting etc). I've always been fearful other going to a slimming club, because I worried I would become competitive with them. If it worked for you before, then give it a go.

Hope things pick up for you. Message me if you need, and if you are in commutable distance of Birmingham, I'll recommend my therapist.

Jen