after one suicide attemp do you assume that everything is another try?

[cheesesarnie]

my dad tried to commit suicide 2 ish years ago.still having lots of help but no longer in a unit.

today i go round and hes asleep on sofa with gas left on.
do i trust that he left it on accidently or ...well,not.(ive not let onto him my worries but it was a good job i decided to pop in).

will i always suspect the worse and will i ever let an ambulance go past without assuming its for him?

Oh God, you poor thing, that sounds horrible, what a stressful situation.

I think it will take a while for you to not feel jumpy about this. I know it's so hard not to worry, but it's not in your hands. You just need to support him as much as you can, listen to him and make sure you're taking care of yourself too.

but it kind of is in my hands.
the cpns,counsellors etc arent there all the time.

The choice is his, though, sadly. I know that sounds horrible, but if someone wants to do it, they'll do it. I was suicidal for a long time, and there's nothing anyone could have done to change my mind. Thankfully I'm all better now, what helped was just having people to listen and not judge and give me time to work through my feelings.

Is someone supporting you?

What did he say about it cheesesarnie?

thanks yellow
i know,i know.usually im strong,almost put it to the back of my head and were just normal.then it'll pop back up.he and i have been bit fidgety about xmas but so far so good (until today)hes made plans but they are more 'see how you feel on the day'.

not really,i have good friends and family but family arent nearby and those that are seem almost scared.friends dont really get it.

he said he must have left gas on after making a cup of tea,which is perfect possible.maybe im being overly suspicious(i didnt let on to him that i might think differently).he said he fell asleep.
when i opened the door the gas was over powering.

That is worrying, cheesesarnie, even if he didn't do it intentionally.

It's hard without support, can you find a carer's group? Are you getting a carer's allowance?

no and no.
seriously doubt theres any carers group in our area.
not interested in any carers allowance tbh.would just like to not worry !