have you ever worried if you start to cry you may not stop

[thegrumpyone]

ever since i was 21 i have lost it every 6 months or so and sobbed and had a night of dispear but the next day picked my self up. that was my relief but since i have started taken anti depressants over a year ago have had reason to but can not cry, am scared to just encase i can't stop.

I was on ADs once. Couldn't cry. At all. Was completely NUMB

Yes, I have worried that if I started crying I woudn't stop. It was during a rough time in my life and I was trying to hold everything in for fear of what would happen if I talked about it or started crying and couldn't stop. To cut a long story short, I said this to someone and they said 'Why? What would happen?'. So I cried and cried and eventually stopped. And did the same the next time I felt like crying. For me, it has to come out somehow and that person saying that made me think, really, what's the worst that could happen.

Sorry, I have no experience of ADs but your thread title struck a chord with me. I hope you find your relief.

ADs numb you round the edges and getting the tears to flow can be a lot harder.ive always managed to stop eventually.like you say its a relief of all the crap going on in your headnever heard anyone that wasnt able to stop if thats any comfort

Yes I used to feel like I wouldn't be able to stop and still feel like it occasionally. I used to also get tearful at times when I really didn't want to. I am more numb now due to the ADs and generally it's better for me to be numb as I'm more able to function.

I think I'm still very sad deep down inside though:(

thank you all,
it's so hard to understand the change before i had children i self harmed then when i had my eldest that was no longer an option. Then i would break every six months and now i don't have that.
with in the last year things have been really bad. feel stuck unless i can realise what has happen i can not move on. sorry for not really making much sense, but its so nice to get it out

I've just stated on AD's a month ago due to panic attacks etc I was close to breakdown and since then although I still have weepy moments [usually after a hard session with my counsellor] it's not as bad.

orangeflutie- i know how you feel have had to say to my line manager if i need to take 5 then this why. the littlest things set me off. and i do know i'm so unhappy how can a person exist like this and still function. amazing really what the body can do!