I feel so unable to cope but at the same time i am happy with life - why??

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I feel really unable to cope with even basic things lately and i have struggled the last couple of weeks especially. I thought i was feeling just down because i was tired being pregnant but i went to stay at my sisters lately and took my youngest child and as soon as i got there it was like a weight was lifted, i felt well and happy. I came home yesterday and i feel so miserable and weepy today. The thing is i dont hate my home, i love my husband and i love looking after the children so why do i feel unwell and anxious and just overwhelmed by life here?.
I have suffered anxiety problems since i was a teenager and have been to the gp and counselling but tbh i have never felt unhappy just had panic attacks now it has been different and i have no idea why.

Does anyone else feel like this?

Yes I do. It's almost like the panic comes from nowhere. I personally believe it's to do with hormones. I feel for you as know how awful it is to suffer with anxiety.

There is a type of depression, (sorry can't be sure of the correct name, think its atypical depression or dysthymia) in which the sufferer is able to enjoy special events like visits or holidays but have a low mood the rest of the time.

I tend to be like this and cope by being very vigilant about my mood slipping and doing things to get myself going. i act like a diabetic monitoring my bloodsugar to keep it stable.

Getting out of the house, making myself be as sociable as i can manage, exercise, decluttering, vitamins, whatever I can do really.

what I really ned is an interesting part-time job!

wiggly - I have been seriously consdering what to do with my life now! I need to work or be a part of something but I don;t know what