I have spoken before on another thread regarding citalopram withdrawal.
Have recently reduced my dosage from 50mg to 40mg on doctors insistence.
The first week was terrible but after that I felt okay however I have felt increasingly anxious, depressed, angry demotivated and just feel as though I am not coping at all!
I have been shouting and generally feeling as though there's a lump of anger in my chest which could go off like a bomb at any minute.
I made an appointment with the doctor this afternoon and i'm just home. It wasn't my doctor but another in the practice as it was an emergency appointment.
Discussed how I have been feeling and asked what my options were regarding changing to a different type of medication to which he shrugged off and said he could not increase my dosage and wouldn't want to give me anything else as it would compromise my health.
He said he would speak to the health visitor and get her to come out and see me(she previously used to come out once a week for a chat- absolutely no help at all) and see if there was any practical help I could receive.
I burst into tears when he said there was nothing that he could do for me medication wise- then could hardly get the words out for crying. Just felt so desperate. He never once asked how I was feeling- if I had thought about self harming(i haven't) or looked at me once.
He hasn't mentioned counselling or therapy or CPN.
I now don't know what the fuck to do- I've been crying since I came home. My kids are wondering what the hell is going on. Fell awful for crying in front of them- I never do that but actually can't stop tears spilling from my eyes.
I don't know weather to change practices or phone Nhs 24 and see if I could speak to a psychiatric nurse..or what the hell to do.
Don't know what my options are at all and so lost..any advice would be a great help
sorry this is so long