Stress getting on top of me.

[Crawling]

I am writing all the things which are currently stressing me in the hope that it will relieve some of it.

DC2 has speech problems
DC2 may need to have grommets
Christmas
Money issues
my bathroom roof collapsed and I cant afford to fix it, my insurance doesnt cover it.
I need to find money for DS birthday.
I have 50 plus verucas which are making walking hard and now my foot is swollen.
I have low B12 levels and because of longterm poor health if levels dont improve with tablets I am being referred for test to check for pernicous anemia.

Thanks to low B12 levels I have been unable to get up because of being in agony for 10 weeks.
I am trying to stay of meds in order to bf DD 2months and I am worried that I am not going to make it till 6 months.
I am scared that I am not bipolar and that b12 defficency was making my symtoms not bipolar and that I will be put on lithium when I dont need to be, and if I am anemic I will find it hard to tolerate the meds.
I had a hard time bf this time because at the end of pregnancy I damaged my nipples and accidently took a chunk of the end of them because I wore a bra too small and a breast pad got stuck in a small patch of blood and when I pulled it took a chunk this is now sorted but really stressed me out.
My hips have been in agony since I gave birth.
My sons school report came back and the schools average grades for boys is 20 percent below the average.
I have missed 2 credit card payments (I just forgot).
I am scared my baby will die of SIDS
Oh and DPs paternity pay is going to come out this month so we will be low on wages.

There is so much I just cant seem to deal with it and the more stressed I am the more irrational worries are pilling on. I am shouting constantly and when I am not shouting I am crying and Ijust worry and worry but cant seem to sit down and just sort anything out. If anyone is still reading then well done I keep forgetting things and cant concentrate at all.

Oh and I lost my prescrisption for my b12 tablets.

You have a list of things right there. Call the credit card company today, explain that you have a new baby and set up a payment plan. DO not leave it thinking it will go away. They'll be far nicer to you than you think if you just call. Don't stress about the school report. For all the financial things, it might be worth a trip to the CAB to see what they can help you with, there may very well be grants that can help you with the roof.

As for your health, THAT needs to be priority. The verrucas sound horrific, you need urgent medical attention for that. While you're there get referred for physio for you hips, I left it after I had my second child thinking it would go away and I so wish I'd got seen sooner. The b12, I'm sure I;ve read that injections can be more effective than tablets, have you asked about that?

I can see how all of this has got on top of you. I felt overwhelmed after the birth of my second child, I was on my own and things slipped. I was finally diagnosed with anxiety when he was about 18 months old and the tablets and therapy I had transformed me. Don't think this can't be sorted out. it can, one thing at a time :)

Thank you it feels better now it is written down and to talk it over with someone, I emailed DP and he is dealing with the money concerns now. I am seeing my pychiatrist soon so after that I will make a appointment at the doctors and I might take a list of whats wrong and give it to him.