Really am struggling :(

[craftyknickers]

I have always been a glass half empty type of person but this is beyond a joke.

I am always looking for bad things, I am paranoid that something bad is going to happen. if something good is happening to me I am waiting for the bad thing to happen it never does I'm usually worrying over nothing

I can't just enjoy the moment and just live life each day at a time, I'm constantly looking forward and worrying. It's always silly things but I get so worked up!

I'm rubbish in relationships because of this, I'm always thinking they are going to go off with someone else because I'm not good enough, or I think they must be lying ago me.

Reading this back it's clear I have issues but I just need some tips on how to think differently and how to stop worrying over things that haven't even happened yet.

I could have posted what you have 20 + years ago,but somebody once said to me "why worry about something that hasnt happened,it might not happen and even if it does worrying wouldnt change things",it struck a chord with me and i have learnt to chill about things instead of tying myself in knots.However,I dont know how much this has to do with age(I am a lot older than you),I have also learnt to appreciate the good things in my life instead of dwelling on the negatives.

Is it possible you are depressed? Would it help to talk to your gp....tis not normal to live like this hun.

I would see your GP hon who should be able to help you more comprehensively than anything you can get from a forum - you obviously have the perspective to realise that your way of thinking is making you miserable and that a part of your thinking is irrational. I shan't offer you any platitudes but I would say that sometimes saying how you feel out loud can be a huge relief - you may feel there is no space to say how you are feeling in your day to day life but take the first step. Take care xx