So I'm sat here with a knife, talk to me please.

[Arana]

I'm not going to kill myself, but I'm running out of places to cut myself. Got a job interview next week (hah) so don't want to cut on the arms or lower legs.
I think I may have broken my hand as well punching a wall.

Oh, you poor thing. You know what you need to do. Put it down, go and do something totally different instead (put a music channel on loud, run round the block, eat masses of chocolate or whatever it takes).

Focus on your job interview - good luck for this! Spend some time researching the job online maybe and making sure you're super prepared.

And go and get your hand seen to!

take a pillow and beat the fuck out of it?

my ex self-harmed. it's not easy, i know, but you need to get some help. are you on medication? can you talk to your GP?

If it is practical to go out for a run (I appreciate it might not be, with small chilren possibly in the picture), it does seem to have some of the "release" that self-harm gives: an engrossing punishing pain that stops other thoughts for a while. But it doesn't have the negative conseqences, becasue you will have cared for yourself, raised your self-esteem, rather than damaging yourself.

Alternatively, I've often heard people on MN recommending a trick of putting a rubber band on the wrist and 'pinging' it for a pain that does no harm.

If you are just feeling too low for either of these tricks, please just don't feel too hard on yourself.

And good luck with the job interview!

Does holding ice or scribbling on yourself help? You may want to get your hand checked out - breaks can be complex.

Hand not broken, thank you for the support. DOn't know if my marriage is over or not. Apparently I need to forgive him again for betraying my trust. If the marriage ends, it's my fault for not forgiving him, not his fault for texting the stupid woman in the first place.

arana, hello! how are you today?

so - your marriage is on the rocks and you cut yourself. Your husband seems manipulative - it's not your 'fault' that he is texting an OW - you can see that? you can see that he has to take some responsibility for what has happenned? can you tell us more about what has been going on? make yourself a nice big mug of tea and talk to us...