struggling today

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Not really sure why I'm posting tbh. Just struggling today. Should be my 3 year wedding anniversary today.....except that H moves on Thursday. I still don't know if landlord will follow thru with his threat of eviction and xmas is my hardest time of year for other reasons so there's the added stress of trying to make it extra special for the DCs.

People I thought were friends are bickering among themselves about the break up which I haven't spoken to anyone about cos I didn't want them to feel they have to take sides.
And the rumours are relentless.

Just feel very low. I know I've lost control of my eating (ED related - I have relapses from time to time) and I'm using SH more than I ever did. But that is what is getting me thru if that makes sense?

i have suffered with depression on and off since i was 16 im now 31. im actually suffering it now but it doesnt fit me like it used to. i used to feel worthless amongst many other things. after having my son i became ill again and wouldnt leave the house yet again. i had a loving partner and daughter too i didnt want to loose this so realised i needed to get help and so started seening a cousellor at my daughters school. my counsellor was not there to tell me what to do but help me to work things out what i needed to do that was best for me this form of couselling is known as person centred (carl rogers) there are other types to for example CBT everyone has there preferences but it really helps to talk to someone who doesnt know you so they will not judge the situation or tell you what they think is right for you. stressfull times are hard but we come through them stronger for it. you may feel you are unable let go of the past at the moment but time is a great healer everything takes time and maybe if your friends knew they would not take sides especially if they are true friends. if you loose friends there is always more friends around the corner when you are ready to move forward.maybe you could start a new college course i did and now im in uni doing my counselling foundation degree. i struggle with depression but i wont let it beat me. Depending on the jurisdiction involved, before a tenant can be evicted, a landlord must win an eviction lawsuit or prevail in another step in the legal process. however im not sure how long this takes and if you are unable to aford to seek legal advice i would google evictions to see what your rights are and how long you would have before this took place this might allow you time to seek somewhere new and save whatever money you need to save. take some deep breaths yes its xmas but it doesnt matter if you need to cut back a bit on exspence others will understand. you say that xmas is hard for you for other reasons i understand how other stress on top of this can be very wearing along with your eating situation your health is suffering you are worried. i know you have alot of things going on in your life right now what with the breakup all the changes you will be going through, but once you have worked these problems out things will be alot brighter :0) there is help out there, maybe you could talk to your doctor or maybe you have a good friend of your own you can off load onto. i hope i have helped a little please if you feel ready and able seek some proffessional advice they may be able to help as sometimes we just need someone we dont know to impartially listen and understand empathetically without judgement

Are you sure you would not consider starting ADs now Paperview? Sounds like you need it.

I need to be able to drink (alcohol) and going to start them next week. I've never ever not been with one or all of my DCs :-(

Eviction wise, all he has to do is serve notice to end the tenancy and I will have 2 months. I can't save what I don't have tho.

I need to be able to drink (alcohol) and going to start them next week. I've never ever not been with one or all of my DCs :-(

Eviction wise, all he has to do is serve notice to end the tenancy and I will have 2 months. I can't save what I don't have tho.

hi madmouse i was just reading you comment and i did not understand it sorry i hope you dont mind me asking

sorry just refreshed the page and im up to date ha

Cavegirl - I went to the DRs and was given ADs which I haven't yet started.

Cavegirl - I went to the DRs and was given ADs which I haven't yet started.

sorry im up to date with the initials now im a bit slow to shortened words. i have been on anti depresents a few times floxetine and they had no side effects for me however i understand this may be different for others. after a short while they do help and your mood is lightened and eventually you feel good they helped me cope in hard times and people who do have side effects these do go away after a short time but is important to keep taking them with guidance from your doctor.

if you go to your local counsel they may be able to help you with your housing situation

sorry cavegirl - I already knew something of Paperview's situation from another thread so was referring to that.

no thats ok madmouse im just a bit slow to learning all these shortened words these days haha. im new here i joined today :0)

Sorry for confusion. ANd for double posts - was on mobile.

ANd welcome to MN cavegirl :)

thankyou just finding my way around :0)