Finally booked DRs appt....

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....under sufferance i must add. And i can't go into detail - should have name changed - but what i want to know is how honest would you be when you can't be 100% truthful about how bad you feel?

I guess i am most worried about who could access my records in the future and why. (H and i separating)

Its ok, its interesting to read different points of view. I guess if I go down that route then I'll find out myself.

paperview - how are you??

Struggling. :-/

Oh so sorry Paperview - me too for last few days, just hoping it will pass. Do you get any better through the day - I usually improve in the evening. Post if it helps but sometimes I know that is too much hassle............sending you love anyway ...................NN

How can I get my doctor to refer me to a psychiatrist? Today I have an appointment with my doctor (again) for mood swings. Yesterday, I ranged from euphorically happy, to rage to deep despair with suicidal thoughts all in the space of half an hour. I've proposed bipolar to the docs before but all they do is prescribe antidepressants, which I'm happy to take in conjunction with mood stabilizers if I'm bipolar. My identical twin is bipolar 1 and is sure I have it too. Are doctors restrained by some sort of policy to just offer anti-ds and cbt? I'm despairing.

Sorry, my mind's all over the place. Meant to start a thread.

NN - No i don't get better during the day. Not started the ADs yet tho so that may make a difference when i do. It's been a tricky week already and its only Wednesday. Had a funeral on Monday and it was held in a place where something happened. The flashbacks were and still are awful.

DD - Don't worry, am happy to share the thread. I can't answer your question though as i don't know the answers. SOrry.

Paperview - seem to recall that you are not starting ADs till you have got through your 30th birthday - have I got that right, and you are struggling with the loss of your relationship - hope that I have that right. Small wonder you felt so crap this week, with a funeral and the awful flashbacks about being reminded of something that happened there - it wasn't the church where you were married was it.

I too am having a really bad day and am wrung out through major crying session and just want to "disappear" feeling I am no good to anyone. I have however felt like this so many times before, I should be used to it, but i'm not.

Sending love from one person having a crap day to another (not a crap person you understand) x

Yeah that's right got wedding anniversary, 30th and H moving one after the other next week. Birthdays are never good days for me and the time of year doesn't help either. We weren't married in the church that the funeral was at, that's one good thing I guess.
Its not the loss of relationship causing my lowness. We have had no relationship to speak of for a couple of years anyway. Its adding to it and the stress is clearly not helping matters!

I hope your day improved a little? I can empathise with feeling like u could disappear. Hugs xx

Yeah that's right got wedding anniversary, 30th and H moving one after the other next week. Birthdays are never good days for me and the time of year doesn't help either. We weren't married in the church that the funeral was at, that's one good thing I guess.
Its not the loss of relationship causing my lowness. We have had no relationship to speak of for a couple of years anyway. Its adding to it and the stress is clearly not helping matters!

I hope your day improved a little? I can empathise with feeling like u could disappear. Hugs xx