Who's the real me?

[Naetha]

Is it the one that couldn't get out of bed all day today and fobbed the kids off with tv and biscuits and didn't answer the phone because I didn't want to talk to anyone? Or is it the one who hates being by myself and is always craving human interaction and communication?

Am I the one who dances around like an idiot texting my friends before a night out, then three hours later wishes I'd not bothered going out at all?

Where does the facade finish and the real me begin? I've reinvented myself so many times I have no idea who the real me is.

Sometimes I feel like a stranger or a passenger in my own body. I look I'm the mirror, and the only thing that seems familiar is the eyes.

Sorry, just having a rough day and feeling very lost.

Naetha - remember me? That's a long time ago - prenatal threads :)

Sorry you are feeling this way. How long has it been going on? Has anything particular brought this on?

Hey Madmouse, I remember :)

The whole family has find through a massive life changing event, that although is positive long term, it's also bloody hard work in the short and mid term.

The upshot is that I had a massive nervous breakdown six weeks ago, followed by realising that I was (and have been on and off all my life) very depressed.

I'm on citalopram, and it's sorted out the anxiety, but over the last month my mind has been in a very dark place, and it has brought up memories and many many questions.

Naetha....I can sympathise with you & could have written a thread similar. Many things happen in life...if it be good or bad that can sometimes make us lose a bit of our identity & feel very lost or that we are unsure of the 'real me'. I had a similar situation after I got married & has by baby (both major events)...trying to be 'perfect' made me forget about what I liked...me as a person.....not as a mummy or wife.
Have you spoken to your doctor...any support in RL?

Naetha that sounds rough and not unlike what I have been through since we last spoke. How long have you been on citalopram? Great it helps for anxiety, but it should help with depression too, if not you might need a higher dose.

Here if you want to chat more and hey did you know we are still going? You'd be more than welcome back here