Hello all,
I've posted on here lots and am recovering from a severe bout of PND after the birth of my DS last August.
Generally speaking I've been doing really well - completed a course of CBT in April, went back to work and my PND group is going from strength to strength.
All good until I experience a blip. I've had a couple in the last few months and am on day 4 at the moment. Am still able to go to work and perform well in my job - in fact it's a great distraction and focus for me.
The problem is I find it really hard to get out of introspective mode, constant thought loops and analysis of how I feel. I know from experience that this fades as the blip lifts but find it hard to manage when am in the middle of it.
When I'm distracted I'm fine, but as soon as I'm alone with my thoughts I start focusing on my anxieties and have some really profound and philosophical thoughts about life, its meaning etc. I also sometimes have a sense that things aren't real (I think that's called depersonalisation) which I find really unsettling. Sometimes I think the enormity of being a mum has spurred me to think like this but I'm not sure.
When those thoughts lift I'm fine but I wondered if anyone ever experiences the same and can give me tips of how to deal with it? CBT teaches me to just observe the the thoughts and not engage with them. Are there any other ways of dealing with it as this is really hard to do sometimes.
Any advice would be gratefully received to stop me feeling like a total loon!