Had such a good day yesterday... Today has been shit quite frankly!

[CharlieBoo]

Just need to vent... What a fabulous day yesterday was! I felt good and was calm and happy, enjoyed my day, the kids were so well behaved, I felt on cloud 9!

Today I came crashing down to earth. Kids fighting from the minute they're awake, I am so low and I can't snap out of it. I feel useless, pathetic, and my kids deserve more than I can give them right now. I thought I was getting somewhere. I thought the AD's would be working by now.

I was planning on going back to gp to tell how great things are, but it's a pile of shit, I am pretending to feel better, just today i can't get my coping face on. I'm going to go back to gp tomorrow to see if she'll increase my dose... This pain and anxiety has got to go or I will be in the nut house and an embarrassment to all.

You don't need to reply, I just need to vent, maybe it helps writing it down. Tomorrow is another day.... Be positive

Getting better will manifest itself in having fewer rubbish days for some reason rather than in every day being a bit better. There's also a common tendency to overdo it on a good day all leading to a bit of a hangover the next day. If you are having good days where previously you had none things are improving.

there's something called cyclothymia, a sort of miniature bipolar thing, where you go a bit up and a bit down over hours or days. It doesn't stop you functioning. I sometimes wonder if I have it - am a real good day bad day person - my productivity varies wildly.