I would just like to say....

[Donbean]

That i woke up this morning feeling great.
I started ADs two weeks ago (i know i know its early days) but i am feeling better.

For any one feeling low and resisting going to the Drs for what ever reason i can only describe it as like Dorothy in the wizard of oz, stepping out of the black and white...into the colour. (stolen quote)it really has made that much difference to me already, honestly.
I can now enjoy my much longed for child, and he has his fun mummy back.

HURRAH ! Enjoy !

Another FANTASTIC side effect is lack of appitite...ive lost about 7lbs i think....hows that for a boost in your self asteem!!!!
Gonna be gorgeous, gonna be happy, gonna get on all your nerves with it all....
May even start threads entitled..."im so fed up with bieng so slender, and supermodelling job is getting me down"..hehe!!

Good news, Donbean. Long may it continue!

Yay!!!!

The wizard of oz comparison is perfect!!! I always thought of a quote from Fame - never being happy isn't the same as always being unhappy. I had felt like that - it wasn't that I was always miserable, just that I was never happy.

Hi WWB, read your last post on the other thread (bout ADs), the Doc told me that this one may not suit me, is that what has happened to you with yours do you think? Could you not have reduced the dose rather than stop them, see what difference that would make?

So are you on ADs then flamy?

What strikes me most is just how low i had got and not relised, i was way underestimating it.
I wasnt suicidal or any thing like that, but i was in a deep black hole with huge black clouds above me for the majority of the time.
Were any of you along those lines?

Donbean, I'd been on a lower dose which hadn't helped, they upped the dose twice but it made no difference. If you're feeling a difference after a couple of weeks then it really sounds as if they do suit you. What are you taking?

cipralex 20mgs. Was feeling dreadful the first week, headaches dizzy and now i feel very tired on them BUT ds has slept through the last 4 nights and im asleep in bed by about 9.30 so getting loads of sleep.

I was a few years ago - I was like you, didn't realise how low I'd gotten, or for how long... Looking back I'd been depressed since 15, and didn't go on them until just before my 21st birthday . I was only on them for about 5 months, and it was enough for my body to remember how to cope again.

Since then (24 now), I have had antenatal depression, but got by without medication, and although I have gotten low during non-pregnant times, I have always managed to lift myself out of it again (normally with a "if I'm not better by X date, I will go see the doctor" - and I have always popped back up by X date).

I felt that they cleared my mind enough to be able to see the light, and luckily, I have somehow been able to keep just a glimmer of it in view since then.

Oh, Donbean, that's great.
I was thinking last night that getting the PND diagnosed and then successfully treated has in a way felt like being given the greatest present. It's so amazing to love having a baby. Can't believe how much I missed out on with my first child. This has been such an extreme year, felt so low to begin with, but now I think I'm happier than I've been for a long time.

All credit to you flamy, same thing here really except its been since i had ds (2 years ago). I thought to myself that i have gone 35 years in my life without even taking a paracetamol, how on earth can i justify taking something with such a stigma now? It was a HUGE thing for me. So glad i did now though, it was affecting my relationship with my son.

Another one who sees my pov, its good isnt it adrift

I had been going to the doctors for years with tears, being tired all the time etc, and it was always put down to my hormones (and they would fiddle with my pill), my diet, or my dad leaving when I was 11...

I then moved house, and got a new doctors - I went in because I was on the mini pill (meant to help with all of the above), and it wasn't going well, and I just sat there and cried all over him.

I explained about the years of backwards and forwards, and all the different birth pills, and he very bluntly (but kindly) said that it sounded more like years of depression, and would I consider trying the ADs. I was so miserable, I decided I'd try anything... I thought of the stigma, but then the scientist in me kicked in - I went with the theory that I would take medication for epilepsy if I had it, so taking medication for another imbalance seemed logical.

Luckily it worked...