Maddie 04 - where are you??

[NanaNina]

Haven't heard anything from you for so long Maddie I am wondering how things are for you. I know you were in hospital. I am worried about you - please try to post, even if it's very short. Thinking of you and sending love NNxx

Hi NanaNina sorry havent posted for a while they upped my meds and I was constantly sleeping. That is me home now and the crisis team are dealing with me, Im feeling a lot better but I am so emotional lol cry at the drop of a hat and I feel kind of unattached to my house and kids, did you feel sort of worse when you got home from hospital? Im taking it 1 step at a time hope you are looking after yourself and keeping well lots of lone Maddie x x x x x

Hi Maddie - we miss you! Glad you're back home now. I can't imagine it's easy coming home as it'll take time for things to become familiar and I know recovery is often a long process.

Just wanted to say we're here for you. Big hugs xx

Oh Maddie ......sooooo pleased to hear from you and that you are feeling a lot better. It took me a long time to adjust to home from hospital and the phased going home, and then going back to hospital didn't really work for me, because if I slept at home I would often wake in a state of great anxiety and have to go back to hospital. When I was actually discharged I didn't feel particularly good but was tired of the to-ing and fro-ing and the psych was pushing for discharge anyway.

I think the thing is now, that your emotional equilibrium is very fragile and you need to take things as steady as you can and not expect too much of yourself so glad to hear you are taking things 1 step at a time. As far as the house and kids are concerned, it will all feel strange, because the thing about hospital is that you don't have to think about doing anything really and then suddenly being faced with real life can be quite difficult.

Glad also that the crisis team are keeping in touch - it seemed that you were left far too long without enough support. Keep in touch if you can and sending lots of love your way..............NNxx

Hi maddie - lovely to see a message from you and that you are starting to feel better :).
Take things really easy x

Hi so sorry not been around for a while hope everyone is doing ok xxxxxxx
Im still struggling being at home and still seeing crisis team but im trying to fight this the best i can.
My meds make me really sleepy and i prefer to stay in my bed and dont have much interest in anything, this is the hardest thing I have ever had to face in my life xxx
I hope everyone is keeping well........NN been missing our wee chats hope your keeping well sending lots of love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi Maddie, lovely to hear from you. I know things are tough but you're doing really well :-) I've had a wobble this week and it is scary when you feel like things are getting on top of you but try and be patient with yourself.

I'm not very good at just accepting blips and try and fight them which can make it worse, sometimes it's easier to try and go with it and ride the wave a bit. It is by far the hardest thing I've faced in life but without sounding ultra cheesy, I think it does make you stronger. Look after yourself xx

Hi Maddie - only just seen your post - been away for a few days visiting family. I couldn't agree more - depression is the hardest thing I've had to face too. It is especially hard for you as you have young children. Maybe the sedative effects of the meds will wear off after a while, but you don't sound quite so despairing, so hope the crisis team are going to keep being involved. Are you still getting some help with the children. Sending you love and warm wishes...........NNxx

Hi Natsyloo - sorry about the wobble - I know blips are horrid as they come when you are least expecting them, often without any trigger. I once read that the "waves will come but we can learn to surf" - hmm - probably written by someone without personal experience of depression. Hope you are ok

hi all hope everyone doing good, iv been in hospital for so long i forgot about the outside world.Im doing good now and just trying to get through day to day, love to all xxxxxxxxxxxx