Hi, I have just registered and have plucked up the courage to write my first post here! I have suffered with depression and anxiety for a long time, following the death of my sister 7 years ago. I have tried so many different antidepressants and am currently on 40mg of citalopram, I wouldn't say it helps but think it keeps me relatively stable. I have a 6 month old boy and ever since he was born my anxiety levels have increased tenfold. Have constant churning in my stomach, especially first thing in the morning. I really try and push myself to try and get out the house most days as my son gets really whingy being in the house all day but I find it really hard, I would say I have some degree of social anxiety and whenever I am out I feel like people are looking at me thinking I'm weird or that they can see I'm anxious!
Being at home all day depresses me but being out makes me very anxious and tired so whatever I do I feel bad! Just want to know if anyone else can relate to these feelings of anxiety especially around people. I also find I compare myself to other mums when I'm out and think they look all composed and 'together' even though I know this isn't always the case.
Thanks for reading x