I am spiralling into depression, I'm not coping at all and fantasize about running away or taking my life, my husband was killed four years ago and although I'm not grieving no more I've got to the point where i don't want to do anything.
I've had lots of traumatic stuff happen and I feel I'm lost....I have 3 children and live with my partner....i have tried talking to him but I hid how I'm feeling. My mother is dying of cancer and my eldest son has aspergers syndrome, he is refusing to go to school and ive just reported him missing as he didnt come home last night, he is 14. My financial situation is f**cked and i'm not opening my bills.....I know what I have to do but avoid doing it. Ive tried antidepressants but they make me implusive and make me feel worse.....I just don't know what to do.....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!