What is the point of the crisis number?

[APieOfButter]

I have the number in my phone, what counts as a crisis, ie i know actual suicide would, or if someone was running down the street nude, but both them would be covered by 999, surely?
Sorry, that sounds awful. I just mean, am i mwant to ring them if i feel awful, but not like either of the above will happen? Have rung before, but don't remember as was so disteessed at the time. I know at least once they have called the police, and at least once they have told me to just go to bed. So I was wrong both times, but what would they do if i was right?

I wouldn't say that the crisis team are there for a chat - they are the ones that organise and undertake home treatment packages in conjunction with your care co-ordinator or they come out to do assessments when someone has got to crisis point.

Have you not got the name and telephone number of your care co-ordinator or your local AMHS team - they should have a 24 hour manned telephone number.

Mind you if you have these feelings everytime DH goes out I think you need to not treat it as a crisis but to realise that you need strategies - maybe ask about CBT - to manage. Of course if you feel as though you are going to act on your feelings before your appointment next week you should go to A&E.

And now i feel totally normal. Although that last down was awful, and i got into some quite detailed planning. Maybe that got in out of my system?

Do you mean planning to end your life - you have to talk about this at your appointment next week - it is one of the things that is taken very very seriously.

Are you still taking your meds?

If it is so bad that you think you might try to do something you can always ask to be admitted to hospital untill your meds get sorted out - if you think that would help you.

Have you had counciling? or talked to someone about how to handle the bad times?

You need to tell people that you feel unwell, do not hide it or keep quite about it as it will make things worse.

With the hearing voice i would say its like hearing a radio but there is nobody else there and no radio or tv is actually turned on.

Im under a special psychosis team as i have had it in the past, but now it it just mood.

Last time i told them i felt like suicide, they locked me in a police cell. That is a reason why i am reluctant to say when i feel ok like now, and of course when i go back to feeling bad i dont tell them because it would ruin the plan.

Are you still taking mediation?

I have never hear of someone being put in a police cell normal it would be to a hospital ward where nurse can look after you and you might be given a sleeping pill?

You need to print this thread out and show it to your team.

How old are your kids

Well that was pointless. He basically accuseed me of being someone else and said he would ask my normal care co ordinator to see me on monday. Then i said i wouldnt last that long and he said that or hospital. Then he said he would send someone out in 2 hours, but i asked if i could just take a sleeping tablet and he said no. Seriously considering just going out. Cba with all this. I dont even feel that bad now so what exactly can they even do? I dont need hospital, there are no mre drugs and there is no underlying trauma to be councilled away. Im just faulty in general.

Admittedly the police celk was when i was drunk.
Dont want them to know my mn name. They know i come on here, but each time i think they have found me i change names, and they are too busy at weekends to internet stalk me.

I'm not a medical person at all so i dont know anything.

I think you are depressed and scared and paranoid.

1. you feel unwell and you need to get help
2. you are doing the right thing in getting that help, you need to talk to the person coming out
3. you need to take your meds
4. you have a DH and children that love you and need you to be well and there with them. You are valued and loved and if you killed yourself they will feel bad and your children will have to go to your furnal - not something you want them to go thru.
5. If you are honest and tell them everything they can put things in place to help you and your family
6. its like a spiral if you start with the dark ideas then you need to notice it and pull yourself out of that line of thought before it gets too far. You need to talk to a councilor to learn how to notice that the spiral is starting and ways of how to pull yourself out of it. You will get better at it and then it will get longer between spirals.
7. you are stoping yourself from getting help because you are scared that you will be locked up - thats not true, you are scared that if you get help and get better that its such a big change and you have been like this for so long you are scared of failing to get better so you stop yourself.

What are your triggers that start a spiral?

No one is just faulty - there is a medital reason for the way you feel. You could be blocking out the trigers as it might be too hard to face then yet, but thats ok.

You need to relax and give yourself a break and stop beating yourself up.

DO NOT GO OUT - talk to the person, get the help that you desever.

The man on the phone sounded really aggressive. I nearly hung up on him.
I dont want them coming to my house - my house is safe, i dont react well to strangers in my house when im not well.
I think ill be fine tbh. Ive perked right up. Maybe exercise is the solution? Im seeing floating spots, its prob just blood peessure.
Sounded like a huge faff to get someone out, do you think i could meet them in the city centre? That way id get fresh air and itd be easier for them. I need to do some shopping anyway.
See? Loads better. Maybe i was just being self indulgent. Thanks for all the help!

No stay at home and talk to them.

I feel the same about my home and i hate having the inlaws round and they treat it like their own house and its not it mine. So i understand that you will be unconftable with them there but they will be there to help you. They are on your side and want to help you.

Its just a chat, nothing to worry about. Stop thinking about them turning up now and do something to take your mind off it like cleaning or somthing.

You are doing great xx

I think you need to talk to them too.

Will your husband be there?

No, hes at work. We really cant interrupt his work- he is on a temp contract and over 50 people wanted the part time shop job. Until he is made perm, he has to be on best behaviour.

I'll 'middle class' myself up. A pashmina and r4 should put them off the scent :-)

Considering having a little holiday/retreat. I could find a cgeap hostel and just hide for a bit. Im scared of my own kids - thats not right.

Right. Time to make myself look normal.

Lots of people are scared by their kids and find it hard to raise them or look after them. Its not easy being a mum Its a big responsability that some people have a hard time getting use to.

There is no such thing as "normal"

You are doing great

if it helps why dont you write down all the things you are feeling and then show them that?

Im regretting ringi.g them now. What Re some key phrases i can use to make them go away? They are interrupting my day now, ans me them- they have ill people to see.
Once theyve go.ne ill go for a jog then get the housework done. Dont know where that depession went, buts its gone now.

They should be here now. Why arent they?

Nope it hasn't you are just saying that to get out of an uncoftable sistuation.

You need help as you know it will come back. Its not easy and it would get better over night but you can do it.

Have a cup of tea, read some funny threads and stay in.

Your doing so well, i'm really proud of you xx

Sorry to be blunt, but from your posts on this thread it's obvious that you're in a fundamentally unstable mental state ATM. Down as hell, then up, then 'OK', cycling very quickly. Seemingly paranoid a lot of the time. That's not good. You know it's not.

It's no good asking for the help you know you need and then pretending all is well when it arrives. They need to know what's going on with you, how you actually are. Tell them. Please.

Will not get better over night

They will be there soon

Go make a cup of tea or coffee and i'm sure they will turn up soon

Oh pie, even if you're feeling OK-ish this very instant, you're in a bad patch and could be quite ill again this evening.

So you need to use this visit to plan for the next few days, when you may be ill.

If you need a break from looking after the kids, so be it. That might mean getting the ILs to take the kids, or a supported break in hospital. Just till this episode is properly past.

Hope visit goes well.

They are still not here . What would i even say if they do turn up?
I had to insist to the man on the phone that i needed help. If they dont give me any real solutions, i dont know what ill do? i have £200 saved up, would that be enough for private treatment?