I have a pretty good life.
I just can't seem to be happy right now. Every day feels like Groundhog day. I wake up in the morning and my first thought is - oh God, here we go again. Have nothing to say to DP of over 20 years. DCs seem like they just want to whinge and make a mess - I have no affection for them. I feel like I'd rather be alone. Have had a dignified falling out with highly loved old school friend (have known her for over 30 years) and feel so empty and sad about it.
I have hobbies but have no-one to share them with (DP not interested, friends busy/children/work etc).
Work is low paid, mundane, annoying, demoralising, thankless, directionless. Have never known what I want to do so have drifted - now hate myself for it.
Moneywise - we get by, but I have no pension and I don't know whether I care or not. Am terrified about rising food prices/energy prices.
I am in excellent health otherwise - slim and sporty. However I look awful. I look my age and am invisible and dull.
Shall I just carry on whinging or shall I get to the point?
How can I help myself out of this? Supplements? Life-changing literature by self-help gurus?
Or do I need the GP?
I had PND over a decade ago. I know the signs and I'm nothing like that. I'm just very, very low.
What to do? Feel hopeless and negative.