If you have time to read my essay
and can tell me what (meds or otherwise) helped you I would really appreciate it.
Looking at the Anxiety.co.uk I would say that I am suffering from anxiety. Lots of financial worries, single mum, job insecurity etc. I have had depression in the past twice and I find this time I feel very different.
I get jelly legs, wake up in the night with a general sense of dread, I watch DVDs over and over to "switch off". I often have a dry mouth. I find it hard to relax, I am irritable, comfort-eat and just generally not me IYSWIM.
This is not a stealth boast post but, I work hard at work, get the kids to school on time every day, feed them (mostly) healthy food (me too, just overeat sweet stuff as well). I really limit booze (only ever drink with meals anyway) because anything over 2 glasses makes me feel down the next day.
I am applying to study to get a professional qualification to really improve my financial status, when I got a CTC/WTC investigation letter (random selection not personal), the first thing I did after putting the kids to bed was to spreadsheet the whole thing with the receipts, staying up till midnight to do it. I control my finances carefully. I always know what I have in the bank (not much)
None of the above two paragraphs suggests depression to me. It's all active, taking control and looking forward. I know that I am not worthless but I am facing some big challenges. I really don't think I am depressed. I think I am anxious. Having had depression in the past (self-harm, drinking too much, not wanting to leave the house), I think I know the difference. I do have low self-esteem but I kind of understand why and work hard (had CBT in the past) to address this.
I've been to the GP who took the usual 7 minutes and prescribed Prozac, but researching this it seems it is more for OCD type anxiety.