I've posted on here about myself numerous times. Basically when dd2 was born I had PND but didn't admit to it until she was 13 months old. I seeked help from the GP who gave me ADs - I only took them for a couple of months and gave up. Still continued to be depressed but denied it when anyone asked if anything was wrong. I struggled on and on for another twelve months. Went back to GP who put me onto different ADs as he didn't think it was down to PND after all this time. The tablets were increased after a few months as they didn't seem to help and I went to five counselling sessions. Tablets kicked in and then were reduced back to original doseage.
Now dd is nearly 4 and I am taking tablets every other day. Only have a couple of weeks left on them and that will be it. I have made my way through it - and looking back I never thought I would.
Just to say don't struggle alone. Help is out there if you need it - don't be proud or worried about accepting it. It's only a short part of your life with help compared to a long part of your life not accepting help and feeling unhappy.
Hugs to you all feeling rubbish - you can do it - I have! xxxxxxx