Bulimia. Again.

[ToysRLuv]

Hi,

Just wanted to get it out there.. I've got bulimia, again. Started weight watchers a couple of weeks ago and here I am. Feel shitty and haven't lost any weight, so not feeling like going to the meeting tomorrow all puffy eyed and fat. They say that you should not be doing the program if you've got an eating disorder, but how am I supposed to lose my baby weight stone and a half? Having a hard time with my toddler and no energy for anything, so bulimia also offers stress relief. Have PND, am on citalopram, but not having any councelling at the moment (feel a bit talked out, if you know what I mean).

So sorry to hear you are so down. Losing baby weight is a nightmare under normal circumstances, but you sound like you are really going through the mill with putting so much pressure on yourself. I'm afraid I don't have any experience to help you - but wanted to bump this up as I'm sure there are some people out there who have gone through the same and can offer some support

Do you really need to lose the baby weight right now? Could it not wait until you are less depressed maybe. Must be a baby if you have PND so lots to cope with already - I'm a great believer in not trying to sort everything out at once.

CBT's the thing for bulimia and needn't be too exposing if you feel 'talked out'- you would need a referral from your GP unless there's a CBT therapist at the surgery. Higher dose of Citalopram might help too?

Thanks for your answers! I have had cbt before for anorexia and bulimia. Didn't really help. Going up on the citalopram might be worth considering.. My ds is 18 months old, so should be getting over this all, really. Am just too tired and stressed at the end of the day to stick to my diet, although in some ways ds is getting easier to take care of. What I don't understand is, how do other people have energy left for other things? People with more than one child? I just feel like a lazy, stupid, fat cow. :(

You may need some counselling or therapy to help with the underlying issues, which CBT doesn't do - and it's not recommended as a treatment for eating disorders.

Chances are this isn't about food or your weight, but feelings that you're having difficulty in managing, and needing some support with.