Feeling so, so bad today....

[RockLover]

Toothache is awful, IBS horrible and anxiety sky high, I have a dr's appt in a week and a bit about possibly having PND, but today I cannot cope at all.

DP is very upset, saying he feels useless as I am always unhappy and I feel so bad for making him feel that way, it's just not fair on him. I love my family: DP, DD and DS, but I seriously think that I am not good for them at the moment and I feel so terrible about that.

I am going to try and get an emergency dentist appt on Tuesday and maybe that will help lift some of the gloom, but I don't know what they can do as i have to take 11 week old DS with me as DP has to work.

I feel seriously shit and hate myself so much, I just want to run away.

Hey Rocklover sounds like it all got on top of you today. These holidays can really be rather taxing can't they. Plus you have just made your big trip and you must be so so tired.

don't panic about taking ds with you to the dentist - he will just have to lie in his pram or car seat and if he squawks tough titties, it won't be forever. Getting your tooth seen to will help as pain can really get you down so badly.

You are not making DP unhappy - he is responsible for his own feelings. He is just expressing his helplessness as he is a bloke and he needs to fix things - if he cannot make someone as precious as you happy and ok it will be hard on him, but he will live.

I appreciate that you don't feel much use at the moment, but it is enough to just be you and to do what you can to get better. I am concerned that your doctors appointment is so far away although you have explained your reasons for this.

Don't try to look further than the end of the day - it will come, it will get evening, you will relax, watch some telly, get some sleep. It will get better.

Thanks Madmouse. Feel a little better this evening as have taken some co-codamol which is helping the toothache. It doesn't help that I am a little bit scared of the dentist (god knows why, I've given birth twice), so it's making me quite anxious.

I'm just trying to get on with things and take the day an hour at a time, I'm going to go to bed in a bit and we'll see how much sleep DS will let us have. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

How are you Rock - has the tooth been sorted - dentists don't hurt as much as they used to and toothache is horrible so a few minutes of discomfort is worth it. Are you getting meds for your IBS? The sooner you get the Gp appt the better. How about your anxiety - that can be the start of depression and I know you think you may have PND so you need to get meds for that, and you will feel better in time. Just realised this is a new thread. You have been very kind to me on another thread, and I have really apreciated your concern. Things will get sorted Rock and Madmouse is so right in what she says (as always) and you know there is lots of support on here for all us sufferers of horrid mental illness, and you are struggling with physical illness and probably some kind of depression/anxiety.

Take good care and post again if you are up to it NNx

My toothache has mostly gone although I still want to go to the dentist but they don't have any proper emergency appts as they have some dentists off work, although they have squeezed me in tomorrow afternoon at a totally useless time!

My dr's appt is next Tuesday and I really need to go because my tummy is just dreadful, it has been upset since week last Saturday I am having to take diarrhoea tablets just to be able to get out of the house every day and I am getting horrid tummy aches. I know that anxiety always makes my IBS worse, but I am slightly worried that my tummy doesn't seem to want to give me any "normal" days which I usually have some of.

My anxiety is sky high and I'm feeling sick all the time, as I said, the dental surgery have managed to fit me in for a quick appt tomorrow afternoon, so I guess my anxiety is ramping up because of that. Trouble is, the only time they had is about an hour before I have to pick DD up from school, so I won't be able to get any treatment and I'm not sure I'll even get to the school on time. I already have my check-up the following week, so I may just cancel tomorrow's appt as the logistics are just stupid!

All I want is to get up in the morning, feel ok and look forward to the day, all I ever feel is ill and panicky and I've really had enough of it! Hope you had a good Easter NN and not too much anxiety with all the family visiting, it's great we get another long weekend as well.

DP wants me to drive him up to Taunton on Saturday so that he can introduce DS to his very elderly gran (she has dementia and is very poorly) before he misses the chance IFSWIM, but of course I feel very anxious at the thought. I really don't want to let him down though as this obviously means alot to him, it's times like this i really wish he could drive, selfish I know, but it would take the pressure off me a little.

Anyway, I'm rambling now. Thank you so much for all your kind words and advice.