Weird night last night...

[ButterpieandCheese]

Last night i got revlly worked up and tense as I discovered that my meds were messed up (I think I have only missed one dose, but I've not been using my plastic day thingy so I don't know) and then I thought my pills were stuck in my throat etc etc.

Went and stood looking at myself in the mirror, but it wasn't me, even though it was. I was looking at someone else (now I know I can't have been, but at the time I was sure) and then I just kind of lost my grip. I kept drifting off all night, to different times in my past, I would be totally there. at one point when I cvme round I was crying because i was scared about how to look after the tiny baby, who was actually DD1, who is 4 now. at another point I was in my childhood bedroom.

I must have fallen asleep at some point (I had ended up in bed) and had really vivid dreams.

Been fine today though.

Hoping it's just stress. i'm not on anti psychotics atm, and would rather not be if possible.

butterpie that doesn't sound great - don't convince yourself that you are fine of you are not

ah, I used to get that all the time. Part of the joy of being mental :/ See why I'm not convinced that I'd get better if I didn't have someone with me most of the time though. I've had this on and off all my life. I work round it - I know when it is coming usually, and I never cause anyone else any harm, so I just look on it like epilepsy or diabetes - just something odd that I do sometimes.

If only I had some kind of talent, I could be like William Blake or Stephen Fry or someone. as it is, I'm just poor and mad...

How do other people manage thier meds?

Sorry for your strange experiences; might be a good idea to talk to GP in case they get any worse or more worrying.
Re meds: I use the plastic thingy with tiny container for each day's tablets, plus small notebook (used to be pain diary) with right-hand page to note down times I took meds, and left side for comments or anything new, because it is just too easy to forget or take the dose twice if stressed.

We all have some kind of talent really, but sometimes it's hidden from public,
and I certainly have days when I feel poor and mad! ( Think about G.P.)

Not sure from your OP whats happening with your meds at the moment if you are on antipsychotic meds or not, if you should be or not??

Keeping a diary/calendar/piece of paper with your meds and making a tick when you've taken them might help. Tho' shouldn't you be able to tell from your doseset box?

I use a little box with the days on, which is helpful, when I remember to use it. also, every now and again I go to it and it's all wrong, with none in the sections where there should be some and some where there should be none. People say to use a phone alvrm, but what I do then is turn the alarm off, thinking "i'll go and take it when I've done x" then I forget.

It's not like there is something that reminds me - ie I'm good at remembering DD1s inhaler because she has a bad cough, and so if I forget, the first time I hear her cough, I feel so guilty that i do it straight away. Given that she coughs every five minutes with or without the inhaler, this means she always gets it at the right times.

I had a little book for a while, but I kept borrowing the pen, then losing it, then thinking "i'll write that down when I find a pen" and forgetting.

I'm hopeless :(

I'm not meant to be on antipsychotics atm, no. Would really like to avoid them - I was on them for 2 years, and they are horrible. Just on mood stabilisers atm, not been on them for long, hopefully they will kick in soon.

I don't see the GP for mental, but my care co-ordinator is coming round today, I'll see if I can tell her (I, for some reason, keep acting like all is well with her until it gets awful)

! I don't remember posting that at all... it sounds like me, but I don't remember it...

Did your care co-ordinator come today butterpie and if so was she/he any help to you. Hope you managed to tell it how it is, none of the professionals are mind readers!

Take good care of yourself