Hypochondria - I want to get over it

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For about the past 10 years I've had hypochondria but not wanted to admit it to myself. I also suffer with lifelong depression and anxiety due to a bad childhood. I'm in my late 20s now.

I have been feeling off the past couple of days and today I spent most of the day in bed, went out to do the food shopping, felt faint and sick so I went to the walk in centre, where the chemist had told me to go. I was informed at the walk in centre that it was an emergency walk in center and why was I there, etc etc. I felt so stupid, I'd had no idea. They saw me and were nice, thankfully it was empty so I hadn't held anyone up. I felt like a massive time waster. It could have waited to see my GP but I'd recently had something done and convinced it was related to that and I was going to get really ill. But then I feel like I'm bothering the GP if that makes sense.

My uncle died when I was about 8, he was only 22. He'd had an aneurysm, nobody knew it was coming. He was so wonderful, I still really miss him now. I think that's why I have hypochondria, because I always panic when I get ill, I don't like feeling out of control and I'm convinced it'll be a tiny sign to something major. Plus I grew up reading women's magazines (i.e. I thought I had a sore throat it turned out to be throat cancer etc). Also when I was younger I spent a lot of time seeing psychiatrists/doctors .

I'm really embarrassed about it and I don't know what to do next to get this sorted - definitely not go back to the doctor!

Thanks for reading this. Sorry its a bit long and rambly

Not long and rambly! Sorry if I misunderstood this, bit knackered so not full concentration, but has the GP ever suggested you could have counselling to help you with this? There is usually a waiting list, but it is quite expensive to go private, so worth hanging on for. Also, your local branch of MIND might offer similar.
FWIW I would have thought the doc would rather people accepted they might have an 'issue', and be prepared to deal with it, than keep going back, iuswim? I wonder if the docs gave an honest answer, how many people attended the surgery like this rather than have a purely physical ailment?

counselling could really help you - either 'traditional' talking therapy if you feel you need to get your head round what happened in your childhood or CBT which can help you challenge hypochondriac thinking - you will probably find that hypochondriac feelings are triggered by something else bothering you - CBT can help you find the real trigger and deal with that instead.

Thanks so much for your advice. Going to look in to CBT and MIND. :)