have namechanged oh this one, this is very serious and no windup. im an adult midthirties and have always known sommething is not right with myself as i seem a lot younger than i am etc and have great trouble showing my emotions, making friends and remembering things(though for dates birthdays etc i seem to have a photographic memory)i work f/t but while at work i always seem to think someone is talking about me/sidelining me etc and yes i do suffer with depression so this doesnt help too. However i do think i also suffer with adhd as some of the symptoms ive read up on fit the way i am, ive tried changing but i to me i dont feel as though im doing anything wrong(?if that makes sense). now im wondering what i do from here how i go about diagnosing myself as i really really would not feel comfortable with going to the doctors and asking for diagnosis, would rather diagnosis myself and that go to doctors with the info but im unsure as to how i go about doing this. I must add that i havent just become like this(have no surviving parents)as when i was a child/growing up i didnt have many friends etc and im diffrent to my brothers/sister and dont no why: now i do. thank you to anyone for reading and any advice(private msg if want) would be appreciated so i can diagnose myself