How do you live with the guilt?

[Crawling]

I have bipolar I have hurt so many people, I didnt mean to and would not have done the things I have done without it, but I still hate myself I look in the mirror and have smashed it so I dont have to see myself. A song that was on while I was manic can bring me to my knees this does not just apply to those who have bipolar as I am sure other mental illness have resulted in hurting those you love. So anyone who has hurt someone through mental illness (this can come in many forms like my partner finding cuts and fag burns all over my body, or a failed suicide attempt) do you feel guilty? how do you cope?

The people who matter will know you didnt mean to hurt them crawling, if you were ill at the time they will understand, in my case, its a case of " those who matter dont mind, and those who mind dont matter" so dont beat yourself up about it, concentrate on trying to get yourself better first and then deal with all the people you feel you need to apologise to or make things right with, carrying all this guilt will hinder your own recovery so concentrate on yourself first. Are you on the proper medication and are you happy with it ? if not then perhaps you should visit your GP.

Thank you I am stable and my pych is great, which is why I feel guilty because I can see what I have done which I cant when I am ill. I will do all I can to get better and stay better.

I feel incredibly guilty (rightly or wrongly), so you are not alone.

I dont have a healthy coping mechanisim, I tend to block memories and then they jump out, we are working on this.