Extreme behaviour that can't be right?? Any advice please!

[Daisycat22]

Hi,

I have some concerns over my behaviour that I've only just realised are not right and I need some advice.

I have a history of problems since childhood with anxiety, panic attacks, post natal depression, agrophobia ad pre-menstrual syndrome. I did see my GP about 7 years ago and was offered counselling (which helped a bit) and AD's which I did not take.

Recently in my 30's my anxiety levels have begun to rise again and the panic attacks are back. I need to see my GP but I'm worried as she is not the best listener, however, I have realised that I have much bigger problems.

I've been looking back over my behaviour from early adulthood and think it's not right. I go through times of feeling really confident and I make really big plans for myself and think I can take on the world. I make extereme decisions which are often not rational and feel I'm on a rollercoaster that I cannot get off.

Once I get my plans onto motion I have a crash of feelings where I doubt my abilities and feel unable to cope and want to run away!

I have made many decisions that i later regret, but at the time i think I'm completely right. I have left my flat before, gave away my new furniture, sold my new car, ran up huge debt, left countless jobs, left my husband and even changed my name!!

I feel like I'm on a mental rollercoaster of up and down feelings. I would just like to lead a normal life of holding down and job, maintaining a relationship and not having to contend with this constant barage of extreme feelings and actions.

Does anyone have any ideas what is wrong with me??

There is the possibility that you're reading a lot into all of this due to the anxiety, but at the same time the rollercoaster you're describing could be indicative of bipolar disorder.

I am no mental health professional and looking things up yourself on the internet can lead to all kinds of wild self diagnoses. My suggestion is definitely to see your GP and if you feel they don't listen properly to you (although you may be surprised) go and see someone else or speak to a mental health helpline.

Hope you get the help you need. x

Im no mental health professional either Daisycat but agree with NWN that it may be bipolar disorder, every one gets highs and lows but the extent of your highs and lows do indicate this, there are some online tests for bipolar but i agree with NWN that you should go to your GP.

Why not tell your Gp what your concerns are? You say the Gp is not a good listener, well perhaps they may not show empathy but they should be experienced to know what treatment to offer or advice to give - such as health visitor support, medication to trial or referral onwards if necessary.

Thanks for your replies,

I went to my GP surgery and spoke to a doctor I'd never seen before and he was really nice. He listened to me and made me feel at ease.

He said it sounds like a personality disorder like adult ADHD, but he's not a expert so he will refer me to see a psychiatrist and go from there.

So relieved I've finally got this off my chest and hopefully will recieve the help I need!

Just wanted to say well done! At least you are going in the right direction.

Well done you. Hope you get the help you need. xx