I have never understood why people cut themselves but now I do and I wish I could do it.

[FourFortyFour]

I am ill physically. I am ill mentally. I have more than one thing wrong with me physically and with one of them and the mental illness I will never get better and will quite probably be on medication for ever.

Right now I am hurting over something and my dh said he doesn't know what to say. I just want him to cuddle me and say something.

I feel like I have had enough now tbh and don't want to fight any more.

I won't do anything as I have no choice but to not but just for a little while I want to be FFF, not a wife or mum.

I will do, thank you.

Wanting to smash crockery is ok and not harmful. Bit daft come morning when you want to eat your cornflakes and all you have is a pile of debris though

Have your DCs got any bouncy balls? COuld you bounce one really hard?

You are right. And my crockery is too nice to smash. I think I will go to bed.

Hope you feel better in the morning x

Thank you.

How are you doing today fourforty?

Hi, I was going to post but feel embarrassed at what a clot I was last night. I have had a good day really considering I was dreading it. I hate Thursdays as I have to take my dd to an activity and stay there with my boys who hate hanging around. DH might come home early today.

I feel really rubbish last night and when I think of my ongoing issue it is really hard to deal with. I have kept busy today. Got lots done but still had some chill time. Tomorrow will be hectic (volunteering, shopping, vet trip, party to do) but it's Friday so that helps.

How are you?

Don't you be feeling embarrassed, there is no need. I've just spent an hour talking to someone from the crisis team about self harming and she was saying it's a really common feeling with people who are suffering with depression or anxiety. I told her a sometimes want to stab myself to let out all the pressure and she didn't bat an eye. Glad you're having a better day, I'm having a better day too. Xx

That is good to hear.

I am here too much a lot if you ever want to talk.

Thank you xx. Same applies, because I'm here an awful lot too!

Glad you feel a bit better FFF, and that you were able to talk too Memoo.

Thank you.

Hello, didn't see this thread yesterday, I hope you're ok.

Former SHer here too, have only done it once since having DCs. There is barely a day when I don't regret it TBH, the scars are bad and will probably never go. I hope you can find another way to cope because it is just as addictive as a drug.

All the best and do post again if you need anything x :)

Thank you. I am sorry if me posting has upset any one.