Feeling really low and generally like a target for the rest of the world to lash out at today
Started on Thursday when Dh found his wages had been docked £400. We don't think it's legal and we are off to CAB tomorrow (earliest we could manage due to dh's shifts / there opening hours) but no-one at his work willing to discuss it. Then I was low anyway, as getting bullied a bit (a grown woman like me- ridiculous!) at Uni, from what i can see on my World religions course having a God- any God whatsoever, Scientology, Moonies- is OK, NOT having a God (we are we have come to believe Humanists) makes me a free for all: so far this week I have been called insensitive, self worshipping, futile, insignificant etc etc. Not by most, but this few people did get to me.
Then we had a text message asking us to book a club we belong to into an event, only we couldn't as closing date was September and Secretary had missed the date, basically. Chairman said fight for it, he was really angry. So we did. Then Chairman's wife flips, (she IS the Secretary) and Dh gets hauled up and shouted at, I get blanked (I didnt even have anything to do with it I was at Uni!), we get threatening calls at our Nephew's 2nd birthday party ordering us to go home and take the 'entry refused' comment off our OWN website.. we were refused. It was accurate. We were told by our club that if we didnt we'd be sued (??? it was entirely accurate!), when we got home we found that this was entirely made up and the threat was that we'd be outed by another website as being the ones responsible for not getting in....!!?? QWe were asked THIS WEEK TO DO IT! Fully expecting to be booted out of club now, and kids really, really love being involved
Se feel like I said as a target, really weepy and low and having constant panic attacks. I was suffering from agoraphobia before and am now fully expecting it's return.
Plus DH has beeen depression free for a while now so this worries me too.
I know we are being scapegoated but they don't know what else is going on in our lives and it's just the one thing too much, really.