Feeling sorry for myself

[BoredCommuter]

I just need somewhere to write this down and I find this board a safe place to do it. Following on from my earlier threads, I have now been signed off for 2 weeks, I'm on my second week of that, and have started counselling. But I just feel sorry for myself, I have no energy, and still feel tired even though I'm getting lots more sleep and doing very little in the day. I now can't do much as I hurt my foot badly on Monday and can't walk much. DH is away all week, but he is stressed as there is a lot going on at work, and he has just had a berevement.

I feel bad as i'm not enjoying this time off with DD as i should, i'm just skulking around the house while her and her nanny get on with things. I'm wondering if I need to get back to work to get out of this hole, I need to get some energy back, I had some good days last week, but that has all disappeared and I feel worse now.

Anyone fancy giving me a quick kick up the arse to get me moving again

I was off for six months during the worst of the PTSD I struggled with for two years. I had therapy and couldn't handle work stress.

I found that it was very important to be active during my time off. DS was in nursery 2.5 days a week and during those 3 days I walked several miles each day, exploring all the footpaths in the area and further afield - the drinking water reservoir 10 miles away was very peaceful at 9am on Monday morning. I also wrote every day. Prose, poetry, painful thoughts, anything.

You need to make a plan - some exercise, something enjoyable to do.

The plan and doing things is what I am missing. I did feel better last week after I started doing things. This week as been a bit thrown by the foot thing as I really couldn't walk easily, but i've taken strong painkillers now and can walk a bit better. Tomorrow I have to take DD to her 2 yr check up and dance class so that will get me up and about. I need to decide if I'm ready to go back to work on Monday