Winter misery or depression?

[philnteds]

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reading these posts on here and some people are going through a much harder time than i am but i am wondering if i am depressed

i have been getting weepy lately and small things seem to trigger this off there doesn't seem to be a particular reason for this but one of the things that i find so hard is that my life (as a mostly SAHM) has shrunk down to this small town that we live in and i feel trapped here i feel trapped at home a lot too we've had three weeks of constant illness either DS or DH then me so plans had to be cancelled etc stuck in doors a lot

DH works away and i have no family close by (and i don't get on with them anyway) I don't think the dark days are helping

i don't seem to have any life left in me :-(

can't bear meeting up with other mummies as DS tantrums kicks and screams so i just feel like i can't be doing with it all at the moment this isn't like me....

Have you seen your gp?
I had that this time last year.
I chose to go to counselling, anti-depressants make me ill. It started to lift as the spring came along.

How old is your DS? It's possible that he's feeding off your emotions.

My dd 4.9 mirrors my emotional state, which causes me to try to hold things in for her sake. I know that this doesn't always help though.

If it's any help you're not alone in your feelings of isolation. A lot of sahm have moments when they feel left out of 'normal' life.

thanks for post
i am completely cut off from normal life and this sounds ridiculous as i am in control of my life but i think i let the SAHM thing go on for too long....DS is in pre-school and i am doing the odd hours of work but i do wonder if full-time or four days a week work would be so much better for me mentally

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i have some time to myself and i am just sitting here in a towel not moving

have no appetite either

I think you should see your gp/hv tomorrow.

If nothing else it will let them know that you're not quite feeling yourself.

There maybe some support in your local area that just fits the bill.

When your ds is in pre school do you do anything to indulge yourself?

It doesn't have to cost alot, a long soak in the bath, paint your nails, read a good book?

I've found myself feeling guilty if i do anything entirely for me. Like i don't contribute enough so therefore I don't deserve to do anything for me.

Of course it's not true. I'm doing the most important job in the world, raising the next generation.

And that is exactly what you are doing!
You are doing a great job, just don't forget to look after yourself too.

thanks child of isis that's very kind
in fact after reading some of the other threads on here i am thinking so what? just relax so that is what i am going to do

relax with no guilt hopefully

i find unwinding very difficult now as you are always on the go with kiddies and i am going to work later but that's ok shouldn't be too taxing

Going to GP tomorrow if anyone is reading this i don't feel right at all i just want to go to bed and hide and i can't...

i can't eat feel awful almost feel physically ill and achey

DH away for 36 hours which is the worst possible time for this

just have to get through

Its really good that youve made an appointment .

Try and break today up into small chunks - even 15 minutes at a time just to get through.

You will feel better - but it can take a little time. In the meantime be really kind to yourself - you sound exhausted x

Thanks for your post
what has triggered this is an uncomfortable encounter with my boss where i was given no choice but to attend training today and i had no childcare. I was told attend this training or you won't be allowed onto the premises and i said 'but i have no childcare' this has plunged me into a spiral of misery although i think perhaps i was spiralling anyway. I felt like i was being punished yet again for having a child. I felt telling them to shove their job.....

anyway i ended up taking a valium and going to this s*dding training and of course only 1/2 the people turned up for the training. thank god for my best friend who looked after my toddler for 3 hours.

i am really down and anxious though it doesn't seem to take much for me to be tipped over the edge at the moment i hope to god the GP listens to me